Today, I’m annoyed. As you know, I’ve been mulling over the idea of moving to Minneapolis sometime next year. It’s tough decision and I’m still not at all sure what I want to do.
But my annoyance is with my girlfriend. She went and told her family about us possibly moving back. And of course like any good family does, the gossip starts. And now I’m sure everyone in the family thinks or knows that we will possibly come back.
This annoys me because it’s an outside influence. If we go back, I want to go back because we want to not because someone is pressuring us to. I don’t want to talk about it with them and I don’t even want to include them. Fuck.
So now, I feel really alone. I already was feeling lonely since almost everyone I knew and cared about lived a long ways away. I feel like I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this stuff. I did feel like I could talk to my girlfriend about it, but now I know I can’t. I can’t talk about anything with her or it will go directly to the gossip land back in MN. I don’t want to deal with this shit.
Basically, the only person I can talk to about this is a blog on the internet about cubicles.